I've tried vlogging (video blogging) on Youtube and while it's fun editing and coming up with ideas, I'm still not comfortable in front of the camera, even if it's just me in the room. I love making videos because I can put as much thought and creativity into as I want.
I think I'm more of a behind the camera kind of girl, but I'm trying to be more comfortable in front of the camera. I need to get out of my comfort zone and challenge myself. One platform I'm getting more comfortable with is Snapchat. I'm constantly making bizarre snaps and what really helps is when I get positive feedback from it. I'll have friends contact me and say, "your snapchat videos were cracking me up" or "please make more, I love them!". These types of comments really make my day and it's always good to hear something nice. With Snapchat, sometimes I overthink and I'm about to delete something I just made but then I tell myself, who cares? I'm being myself. So I post it and then I don't look at who's viewed it because, personally, that makes it worse for me.
What I'm really here to post about today is my recent photoshoot with a good friend of mine. I love doing fun little photoshoots with my friends from time to time. I realize that I feel awkward as soon as the camera is on me and I never know what to do, but after a minute or two I feel a little less self conscious. With this shoot in particular, I was excited because I got all dressed up and did my makeup and my hair and I was feeling really good about myself. When we got to our destination and my friend told me to stand somewhere to pose, I suddenly didn't know what to do with myself.
Where do my I put my arms? My hands? How should my face be? Do I look angry? I told myself to relax and then my friend started making me laugh and he got some great candid shots. Those shots probably came out better than the posed ones.
Basically what I'm saying is that it's hard to feel confident in front of the camera, but I'm glad that I'm pushing myself to do so!